A word I have historically despised because it offers an easy way out of an argument. But if you take it out of that context, I feel this word is making a slight comeback.
I am certainly not an analyst but when things go downhill or stay unusually stagnant, there usually are three phases. There is the easy and overused denial, followed by introspection and a gap analysis, and lastly, the fix that solves the situation. However, very little attention is devoted to what follows after because the assumption is that the fix-a-patch works.
But lately, any fix I come up with has resulted in absolutely no change. To some who I care for, I continue to be visualized as mis-domesticated monster. To those on the playing field, I end up unjustly being the unnoticed. My kitchen soils despite my best efforts. My shiny black car’s plastic shrouds on the under carriage remains just as vulnerable to road debris, despite my unbridled love for her. And despite yearly personality updates I keep losing a friend a year. Like blue fin tuna, they too are limited in number.
Initially, efforts were focused on being better than average until I realized otherwise. Now, all my energy is entirely dedicated to maintain the class average. Will this slide stop?(Hint: The answer is the tittle)
And here is where I think the word whatever allows a precise explanation of the state of affairs. A silent puff of relief; a sincere attempt to stop self-impingement! To change the conversation to nicer topics and eating pan fried fishes. It is the final word in the cycle of self analysis.
When that solution, any solution, has no outcome, then take a step back…
Know well that arguing against oneself is like playing a round of self chess. That there is no winner just as there is no loser. Stand up tall. Breathe in and Pout out your non-buffed chest. Look around to absorb the drabness. And then in one quick release of air, say it out clearly and proudly.
Whatever
this is so coincidental. The other day my cousin was over,and we were having those analysis talks, and I ended up saying "whatever" on more than one occasion…Finally she pointed it out saying "your life is not whatever". While I agreed, I couldn't quite bring myself to say anything else either…
hhehe, yeah although our lives might not be entirely whatever, the way we live it might sometimes be just that.
So it's a vicious circle, isn't it? We say 'whatever', then wonder why we said 'whatever'. Is it really 'whatever' or does it hold more meaning?
I've come to this conclusion…it can be an extremely empowering word if you let go of the feelings/thoughts that come after you've said it. But, if you can't, then the same word can bring you down…big time!
I'm saying it – whatever…and there is no remorse 🙂
there you go, that's the spirit. Let us all look to a whatever kind of quarter life 🙂
Excellent post. Ironically, WHATEVER is what I feel like saying to God everytime something goes wrong in my life – like now..
Ha! whatever! 🙂
By the way, I found it to be a wellwritten and highly interesting post. You are a very good writer(and thinker)! (why am I surprised?)
Jasmine: Thanks. I am not entirely sure if God is listening. He is at times, quite occupied.
Mystic Rose: Thanks! Although you shouldn't be that surprised to be surprised!
nice one!
Ash: Thanks. You still here?
na- got back monday. missing the good times already!
I tried whatever, doesnt work, quite frankly sucks…
Upasna: Whatever.:-)
No no you've gotta hear it to believe it!! 🙂