De-connotation of change

Recently, I read a book called the “Room” authored by Emma Donoghue. The book is a thought proving narration of a five year old that is forced to grown up in a single room. His mother tries her best to instill every bit of knowledge despite severe odds of being kidnapped and molested and imprisoned in the same room since her teen years. Eventually, through sheer grit and determination they manage to escape the kidnapper and also the room. Something that the mother undoubtedly thinks is the best change she could bring about in her life. Meanwhile, the child, knowing only what lay within the room starts to find the outside not necessarily better. His perspective is so skewed that he actually starts wanting to return to the familiarity of the ‘room’. It is this thought that provoked me the most.

I have spilled endlessly about change. Most of it has been clichéd. If I summarize my previous posts all I have ever said is that change is good and I try to bring about change year after year. Yet, depressingly, every year I try harder to kick-start an avalanche but only result in a slight puff of snow at best. Meanwhile as the years pile on, my surroundings seem to be changing at a rapid rate. This only makes my relative pace more miniscule.

On second glance, I am starting to feel that assigning a connotation to change is just wrong. Change doesn’t really bring good or bad but rather just changes the variables of the equation. This equation only you can resolve in a positive or a negative manner. Change doesn’t have to be good; Not-changing doesn’t have to be bad either. Have you ever considered that perhaps you are the happiest where you are at?

In fact, it becomes impossible to initiate a change if you constantly evaluate its consequences. The only predictable consequences are the immediate ones. The ones that you don’t fear because you see them coming so clearly. The fearful eventualities are the ones you cannot predict with any certainty anyways. Then why hold them ransom to deny your-self the change?

Does this mean that contrary to popular belief it is time to throw caution to the wind? To attempt a different path completely; fearless of impending doom! Or to understand that doom lies on every path you take. The reason that you avoid it often is because your path never stays true to and straight.

That even on the best of days, Satan too has a difficult time keeping up with a moving target.